Its been a while since my last post... things are going well here in St Gezzy. (lol) Christmas was good although I really really REALLY missed my family. I got a hour phone call with them and talked to everyone of them so that was nice. I felt bad because I couldn't make it up for Christmas... by the time the opportunity was given it would have been too late to change plans with out causing issues with other people. But overall I had a good Christmas. I got two amazing gifts that stand out above the rest. The first is the large sum of money my parents gave me for Christmas. It was such a blessing to get it and it is all going to bills and the eye doctor but I am so grateful for it and to be able to see again! I'm in need of new glasses and contacts so it all works out perfectly. The second gift I got was one from James. I had been needing a new journal for about a month and couldn't find one I liked (I'm very picky when it comes to journals. It can't have any words on it, like any quotes of inspiration or anything, not even titling it, journal.. I think that's so lame) Its gotta be big enough to write in, but small enough to carry in a bag. And not ugly! Pretty enough to make me want to write in it but not so pretty I feel I'm defacing it with my horrible hand writing. Picking out a journal is always very tough for me.. anyways, I was saying I was in the market for a new journal. So for Christmas James got me two! He prefaced the whole thing by saying i could return them and he would understand because he knows how picky I am over them.. But they were perfect and to be honest, much nicer than I would have ever gotten for myself. They both are Italian leather and smell amazing. Both are brown.. one dark brown with a hard back binding/cover.. its littler but looks just awesome. He said he got it for me because it looks like a real book and because the cuts in it look like architecture and he knows how I like buildings and things. the second book is a lighter brown with a bronze paint over it and it looks incredible. Both are gorgeous and perfect journals. It made for an awesome Christmas present because he put so much thought into it and it was a gift of something I needed, wanted, is useful and will last for years and not take up tons of space.

I'm trying to sale my car. its the biggest payment I have to make monthly and since I now work from home, its not like I really need it. If I do need a car I can always borrow one of the other 5 people's who live here or bum a ride from them or take the bus. 2010 I think will be my year of minimizing. After moving so much.. I've found I don't need half my stuff, and with lower pay and trying to afford to go back to school... it makes sense to try and lower all my bills.

Its been a really crazy year. A hard year. Getting through a divorce has pretty much sucked. Moving to Cali was a good thing as it made me figure a lot of things out about myself and its been crazy being on my own. I'm glad to be back in Utah and its weird to think I'm living in St George. I've truly learned to appreciate the value of my family. I miss all of the m everyday and It is so hard when I have to say i can't come visit for financial reasons. By far the weirdest turn of the new year has been me Dating James. He was going through a divorce long before I was and I never thought anything of it. I'd often talked with his mom through the years and when I said I was getting divorced she suggested he and I talk to each other... more for moral support, someone closer to my age going through the same kinda thing. He became a close friend and a comforting shoulder to call up. When he moved to LA to make sure I'd be safe I was shocked but also very happy to have a friend in that horrible place. Things progressed to where everyone thought they would and he and I began dating. He has helped me through a very hard time in my life and I am very grateful for his friendship and support. It is though him that I was able to move back to Utah and not worry about finding a place to live. Living with his family so soon into our new relationship is weird but not so bad... its a lot like in Cali when he had his room I had mine and we would hang out in the common areas.. except now his mom hangs out with us lol. It was been crazy and a trying year on many of us.. but I want to say thank you to my family.. thank you for always being there and for supporting my journey to happiness, espcially Brittany and Aubrie. You guys have been my constant support and I always look forward to talking with you both in the mornings. Thank you to Jessi for being my best Friend and for always listening and to James for helping me more then he could ever know and for being a good person and friend above everything else.

As I go into the new year I look forward to becoming a stronger and better me. overcoming more obstacles and learning Even more about my self.

The last year of my life has been one wild ride...

Between getting married and divorced, moving to L.A and now Back to Utah.. life has been full of new adventures.

This past weekend I moved to St George, UT. Its a very very nice change from gross L.A. My Dad told me before I moved to L.A. that it was the most disgusting city and I am now very inclined to agree.

Its also my first morning working from home and its awesome! I did not end up taking that secretary job and I'm hoping to get another one ( a second one) with a radio station down here soon.

Anyways that my quick little update.

Its looming ever closer! The move to St George is a week away! I'll be so happy to get out of California. Last weekend James and I went to St George to drop of some stuff and to do a job interview. This weekend We only stayed over night and the trip was literally to move stuff so there's more Room when Jeanene and Neil come up with the truck this Saturday. Then I'll be going, going, gone! YAY!

And I'll be moving into a very good situation. I'm going to be staying as a guest in the guest room as Jeanene's house until I can get on my feet. But I did get the job that i interviewed for a few weekends ago and I start that part time, on the last day of this month. I also have great news. I gave my two week notice to Metro and They offered me a few things to stay. I however do not want to be in Cali and I can't afford to live here. So I suggested that in a sense, Metro move with me. And they accepted. So I'll be going to St George keeping my job and working from home. and in the 6 hours between, working as a administrative assistant. Lots of work to help me get caught up on bills and hopefully move out faster. The last thing I want to do is over stay in Jeanene's home.

But I'm very happy with the situation I'll be going into and hopefully I'll be able to attend school in the fall and get things back on track.

Well so much has happened! As Aub knows, Halloween pics to be posted one day.. hopefully soon!

For Halloween My friend James and I briefly went to a haunted house-house party and then went driving around West Hollywood. It was so fun! He bought a nice suit and Was James Bond for Halloween and I wore my white slinky dress and Just said I was a bond girl. The house party was fun, they had a haunted house up the stairs and then had mad decorated their apartment. We got there early and only Hung out for like 15 minutes before we decided we wanted to go see what Halloween in Hollywood was like. We ended up just driving down packed streets looking at all the people dressed up in crazy costumes and walking up and down the street. James' car has a really nice/loud sound system so we played my thriller CD and danced in the car, the street and with people walking up and down the street. It was a blast!

In other news, I gave my two week notice to Metro last week. I move to St George Nov. 20Th. James is moving with me... He said the main reason he moved out here was so I'd "have a friend and wasn't alone out here, If I'm going there's no reason for him to stay." Its actually for the better because Jeanne is his mom and so He's gonna share a room with his brother and I'll get the guest room until I can get a place of my own out there. Its so nice of her to pretty much let me freeload until I'm settled. I plan on going to school in the fall (hopefully I'll be at a good enough job that i can afford my bills and rent and school.) I already have a job down there but it looks like it may be falling through so hopefully it doesn't or i find something else quickly!

Last weekend I went with James to the Sema Car show in Vegas. We stayed At his moms in st George Thursday night and drove to Vegas on Friday day. The show was fun and it was my first time as a 21 year old in Vegas. (lost 5 bucks playing slots) James' friend Dallon came with us and the boys bought me a buffet dinner... unlimited crab legs! Elk! Ostrich! It was the best buffet ever. Every plate of real food I got, I brought back a different amazing desert to eat with it! lol.
Anyways, Vegas was fun and We ended up staying in St George until Sunday day, It was nice to Hang out with Taylor (James brother) again. On Saturday I had a job interview and that's how I got the job that may or may not fall through. Came home Sunday night and back to work Monday morning!

That's pretty much the update!

Its been a while. Not much has been going on.. a few weeks ago the roommates held a poker party/tourney. Give you one guess who won. :D The extra 120 bucks was nice. Went to bills of course.. gotta love being an adult! Its funny, the other girl roommate, Jeanet, (the owner of the house with her boyfriend who also lives there) shes a funny one. I think shes used to winning everything.. We played a board game the other day and I of course won... she wasn't too happy. then poker came around and She was acting all competitive... and of course my luck at cards and boardgames held true.. she wasn't too happy. :) haha It was Awesome.

My work is starting to feel like the titanic, so I'm not sure how much long we'll rearrange deck chairs. Guess we'll see what happens. Anyways, that's about it... happy Friday eve day!