I know that with the economy and everything, we're all falling on hard times. I have a sister who may face loosing her home soon, I live pay check to paycheck, and still seem to owe some money somewhere. Even outside of economics, things seem to be hard for everyone. I know my family and myself are struggling with the highly likely death of my grandma any day now, and we all have our own personal battles we're facing as well. In short we are all on hard times. My only hope is that one day things will get better.. One day we will all be ahead, be able to not worry so much about fiances, or about ever-looming death. In my own personal battles, two songs come to my mind.. the first is Fast Car by Tracy Chapman. A song about always hoping and working for better but never really being able to reach it. The second song is called Incomplete. Its by Alanis Morissette. A little more hopeful I must say. It talks about how one day she'll be who is wants and where she needs to be in life. So to all of us on these hard times... I know it feels difficult and some days, hopeless but one day we'll all feel complete and our hard work, love and dedication will bring us peace.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q4-8WE6YizEhttp://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AMshi2aS3-o
I know I'm writing this on a Monday (not a Thursday) but its a funny thing. I worked at Salcorp for years and they had a tradition called Donut Thursdays. Well out here in L.A. at my new job, every Thursday.. I find myself craving donuts. Anyways I find it rather funny.
This weekend was pretty uneventful.. Friday night I hung out by myself, painted my nails, called like half my friends and talked to them and IMed Dax on myspace. Saturday I just chilled at the neighbors house, went and sunbathed and then watched movies. And yesterday I went shopping and just hung out. The best part of my Sunday was being able to talk to my dad and here all the latest stories. Sorry I had to go and kinda cut off the conversation! Work at 4 am sucks.
I like posting with pictures so yay google images!
Fathers day is fast approaching, and I won't deny I sincerely miss my dad. Not just because Fathers Day is approaching either. I have found over the past few months that I really miss him and all he did/does for me. I keep having these little revelations when I'm just driving or having a hard time. Revelations of how much alike we are, or how much I miss the things I used to take my sweet time doing. Like going out and working in the yard, on the roof or on a car. On bad days I find myself wishing I could just go out in the yard, have my dad hand me a job and hang with him and the dogs. I miss riding motorcycles and listening to Big County,(sorry dad, yes I did steal that CD.. ) and Lately I've gotten into a country mood, listening to county reminds me of my dad too. I Know he and I have had our tempers get the best of us, but now I see that's just another similarity. We both have tempers from hell, both quick to forget/forgive once we've settled the situation for ourselves, (not realizing the other person may still be pissed... used to drive me crazy and now I see I'm exactly the same way). We both are good with our hands and I find myself needing to fix things to calm down some days... We both are always hitting our heads and look good in hats..
lol. And I look like my mom but when I smile my eyes get all
squinty like my dads. I'm proud to be a Proctor and come from a hardworking family line. I know my dad has always worked hard to support our family and has always supported me, whether in school, sports or life. Thank you Dad.
I know my dad loves me and honestly, I miss feeling that when I walk in the room. I never paid it attention until I couldn't feel it, out here.
So I guess with Fathers Day this weekend its the perfect time to say I miss and love my Dad.
Wow, its already 3 days into June! Where has the time gone? I'm Excited For the summer months here in L.A, although the last few days have been rainy and cloudy, (which
I'd take
any day over sunny weather!!) Anyways, I haven't had much a chance to take my bike out and about but hopefully this weekend!
I experienced a power outage in my home this past week. It was out for over 24 hours.. Turns out my landlord forgot to pay the deposit on the power... Funny thing, Everyone of my roommates were out of town for the weekend so I had a power outage all to myself! It wasn't too bad but I refused to clean out the fridge.. it was the landlord's (who lives at the house) fault and I didn't have any food in the fridge anyways. Gotta admit I was ticked that I had to deal without power all because of his irresponsibility, I can't wait til August. That's when my lease is up and I've been looking online at some places, (most in the same neighborhood or right off the beach) a few that are without roommates (hopefully I'll have the money for that! I'd like my own space and kitchen and bathroom!), also a few that are private and all I'd share would be the kitchen.
I'm looking to get into a place where I can have Owen But It will all depend on what I can afford by the time August rolls around.
Dave is talking to me a bit more, he still hasn't sent me the divorce paperwork, he says he needs to get an
attorney to do it.
That's fine with me but I'm itching to get it over with so I can move on better. There are hard days and some easier days, I just never thought my life would turn so quickly.
Got a phone call from my sister the other day, it was good to hear from you
Brit, Sorry I had to go and then things got busy when I was home.. :( Love you!
Anyways, car pictures coming soon.. just been lazy.
lol Love you all!!
